seharian ini..gw ga tau hrs ngapain..
gw bangun jam 9..krn br tidur jam 5 pagi..
gw mandi, sarapan [sarapan yg paling ga bisa gw telan..], gw ke gereja..[full of emotion @ church..full of tears..oh God please give me strength!], gw balik ke rumah..ga tau mau ngapain..nangis lagi [gw lg bener2 dlm kondisi patah hati tnyata..] dan gw mikir drpd gw jalan dan malah ga konsen nyetir gw memutuskan utk tidur..krn emang gw msh kurang tidur..
bangun jam 6..bengong ga tau mau ngapain..nangis lg..[gw udh serasa ga ada tenaga utk ngelakuin hal lain]..gw laper..tp gw ga bisa makan...males bikin makanan dan emang lg ga bisa nelan makanan..
skrg ini..7.36 pm dan gw blm semangat utk ngelakuin apa2..
hr ini semuanya menjadi emosional..yg biasanya nelpon rmh..semua berjalan dgn tawa..hr ini gw hrs cepet2 nutup telpon tanpa say 'daaagh mi..' coz i can't do that..dan terlanjur gw nangis lg..
i hate this feeling..hurting me..hurting him..but no matter what..i don't want to hurting God..
i always pray for him..the best things will happen to him..in his life..his job..his family and his own family with his wife later on..
i always hoping that we still can be a best friend..it's all about caring and loving but not in 'that woman-man love' just caring for each other as a trully best friend..
i know that u can't believe what i've said 'that this all happened because of God's factor'
but it's okay.. that is ur right to have a personal reason..
from the bottom of my heart..there's a prayer for you..
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